How long has she kept this from me ... ?
How long has she had suspicions ... ? 

What if she does have an STD ... ?
What if i have an STD ... ?
What if he gave it to me / her ... ?

How can we pull through this ... ?
How can i ask for an examination ... ?

Why today ... ?
Why us ... ?
Why now ... ?

First , i find out that mum has read my rant book and told Kate about it. Then i find out she's organized a meeting with me her and Marc Palmer in a week. Now i find out i could have an STD.

If i was thinking about running away earlier, i am certain about it now. Well, honestly it's a tough call between Drink into oblivaration, slash until i die, hang until i can hang no more, or just run away. 

Please, dear Lord above give me Strength ... I don't know how the hell we can do this. (8)We take one step forward three steps back